Christmas music and tears

I am finding this season so hard as time goes on- being taken unaware by Christmas music which brings me to tears-I miss John being here joining in the preparations- also slowing me down- 'sit down woman ' a cup of tea- or a glass of wine.

My friends, children and family are FANTASTIC very supportive to me and to John- yet it is a lonely road at times.

All shall be well
and all shall be well
and all manner of things shall be well......

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