A Continuation of Reflections

Hi blog, went to the hospital today to help in some research for future Glaucoma patients. it went well, lovely young woman administering the tests. Missing dad this last few days, it was mum's 2nd anniversary on July 27th and I did think of her and remember her. Missing dad is much sadder much more painful at times. Mostly I feel I am moving on,it is getting easier. Philip sounds very happy, sounds like he might visit Naples when Carmela is there.Sounds like fun. Andrew has just had his 42nd birthday, first birthday without his papa. We are having a family meal on Saturday night, looking forward to seeing all the young folk here. Hope we get some nice weather.Johnny finishes his play at the weekend, that went quick. Feeling a bit aimless,a few worries on my mind,maybe nothing,maybe something. All shall be well , and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well. I am safe. all is well, only good will come of this, everthing that is happenin...

Hi blog, we have just bought from John Lewis two beautiful new beds,two mattresses,and two very expensive pillows. We also bought some cool new clothes for John. The beds will be delivered in about 6 weeks, so we have to possess our souls and patience till then. I feel uneasy, some things going on that I can't tell you about just yet. On the bright side  I have been a mum for 42 years, today at 2.15 PM. Imagine me with a 42 year old son ,how time flies. I was so young just 21, and my dad was Andrew's age, 42, when he became a grand-dad.Mum was just about to be 44. All wanes :-) Have a wonderful year my child XXX

 Hi blog, Anita's dear friend and sister-in -law died very suddenly last week. I had tea with Anita in Lark Lane today. The whole family are so shocked and sad. I seem to be hearing of more people around my age who are seriously ill or have died or are dying. I suppose it is the age I have reached. Anita asked  when we would have out inheritance, I said we had it,she asked how much ,and when I told her how much we all got. She was so amazed and kept saying well done your dad! I felt very proud of him. Well done indeed Pa X Anita told said" don't splash it around" and she is right. This is a great opportunity to have financial serenity ,till the end. We are so used to managing on such a small amount of money that it is unlikely that we will do anything silly with it. A few things to make Ullet Road more comfortable and a few things in Castlenel. Apart for that, enjoy life , because we just don't know when the end will come. Our tastes are qui...

 

 

Hi Blog, went to see the five trees and talk to dad yesterday. The park looks wonderful filled with life.I saw two Canada geese with three babies, a heron, two water hen babies, and of course MY swans and the two very large cygnets. I took lots of pictures and had a coffee by the lake.It was very relaxing. It is another beautiful day in Liverpool.I have an appointment at the eye hospital today,looking forward to that being over. We ordered a new desk yesterday on Amazon,it is meant to be arriving today because we have Prime (thanks to Andrew) but today I got an email to say it has just been dispatched ,so who knows. I am feeling anxious but I am not sure why! Might be hospital visit, might be I miss dad. .Had fearful thoughts yesterday. Finding it hard to let go, if I have good happy days I then feel guilty, I don't want to "be over dad" and I am not,but if I feel I am at certain moments. I don't like it retrospectively. Matt and Marie are home form America....

Hello Blog we bought a new TV today. It will be delivered on Saturday. 32" flat screen. John Lewis will deliver it, fit it, tune it,put together the new unit and take away the old set and unit.One more thing to thank my dad for. We had a lovely time in Folkestone and London. I felt rested and loved being by the sea. All lovely treats that we can enjoy from my inheritance. I am doing well, feel much less pain in my heart. Mornings I feel quite normal now ,after many months of a heavy heart and tears. Anita's sister in law died suddenly yesterday.It is so sad. Hearing this news, opens up my own sadness I notice. So we had breakfast at Tate this morning, coffee in John Lewis ,I bought some clothes and we bought a new TV. Retail therapy does help :-) Glasgow for me this weekend, travel on Friday and home on Monday. Sandra and I are going to Inveraray on Saturday to have  a nice day out, but also to see the van, visit the place we scattered dad's ashes, and h...