A Continuation of Reflections

I got a letter ,or you did, from Liverpool courts....your name came up for Jury duty....I had to ring this morning to tell them that your died last year...it was so hard...I hate making those calls..I was going to leave it to Andrew..but he is in France and I thought the sooner the better...so I took courage in both hands and called. I have had trouble with the central hearing boiler...had Richie out last week twice...we need a new part..they called this morning it will be £205 so I agreed to have it....I was considering getting a new boiler...but this should keep it going for a while...and I have just ordered a new couch from Utility....and bought a new table chairs and a desk....the couch will take a few months to get there...the table chairs and desk came this morning...they are in the cellar....I have asked Phil to take away the fire place and tidy up the wall...so until that is done..not point in putting new things in. I am aiming for Christmas...but would really like it all d...

Hello darling I have missed you and felt so sad this last few days.....Andrew and Lucy ran the Great North run for you for Marie Curie perhaps as a way of grieving for you....they were fantastic.....trained meticulously - were completely committed to the training the run and the cause...and you I think. They have raided £2,050 to date a fantastic sum and it all goes to Woolton...to your people the people that you have great regard for...us too. I  found it  a bit overwhelming on the day- because they were wonderful all the folk who ran were running for great causes and in memory of loved ones....and I missed you.....and wanted you to see what they were doing to tell you about it.....and no matter how many folk run and jog and cycle....and no matter how much money is raised......you won't come home....you have gone....gone from all of us who loved you..gone from my life forever....and that is sad. I had to ring the Everyman this morning to ask them to stop sending you ...

Hello darling I have been to Cambridge and back since I last wrote to you....it was a wonderful time . I felt closer to Penny and her wee family, I felt very relaxed with Felix and Harry they they are so accepting of me being their Yaya - I feel touched by this. Kate drew me a picture of her and I :-) and she invited me to come to her ballet lesson with her....which was so touching and I really enjoyed it too. Johnny is much quieter quite happy with his own company and with his own wee family....not sure what he makes of me - plenty time.......I am doing what I promised you my love I am keeping an eye on your children and  enjoying it and your grand children...it is a real privilege to have those little people taking me into their hearts. I saw Johnny briefly he looks well has lost a lot of weight I think he is healing a little bit...Penny still needs time but when can she get that time..I will do my best to help. I saw Mike for an hour one afternoon....he still l...

Darling John missing you especially to-day....we loved to dance to September Morn by Neil Diamond on September 1st every year....and we listened to Nat King Cole Autumn Leaves---gosh the words feel very personal this year....and Vivaldi- Autumn. I wondered if I would be able to listen to those songs this year....but I did in the end..it was quite hard...very emotional...instead of dancing with you..I danced with your picture...and cried a little..for you- for all the wonderful September Morn's we spent together. I will not run away from those things my love I embrace them even if they are hard...my way of honouring you...part of my grieving for you. I went to Bold Street when I felt a bit better.....and ordered a new sofa from Utility.....I know you would approve of the sofa and the price...15 percent off over the bank holiday.... I had a coffee in Leaf and thought of all the coffee's teas and meals we had in there...we always enjoyed them. I have reached the time of ...