A Continuation of Reflections

Hello darling very soon your new grand daughter will be here. I have heard form David and I expect to visit with them in March possibly around Johnny's birthday. I miss you especially at the moment ;Christmas is in that air, the town looks and sounds festive, you would love it, we would enjoy it together. I feel lonely walking through the festive city centre in spite of all the shoppers ,buskers,big issue sellers. I am aware of your absence. I miss you .I love you .You are my sunshine XXX TT.

Hello darling John what a tough time I am having emotionally, since our birthdays I have felt sad, but now I don't tell folk so much because I think after almost two years, folk don't have the same patience and understanding. A brief how are you with no expectation of me really telling them, otherwise, they would not ask on the hoof...I miss Anita, we shared at a deep level with no judgement of each other. I felt quite light hearted on our wedding anniversary, people for all around the world remembered the day and sent little messages, I think because of the date people remember, The next day I felt very sad, it hit me again that you were not here, would never be here. I miss you darling John, my best friend, my anchor in life's ocean.My guy who brought me tea all the time, cooked for me, poured me wine.Listened to me. It was so lovely in Cambridge, Steve brought me tea a lot, he knows that I miss that in my life, that small gesture of his touched me deeply.Small a...