A Continuation of Reflections

Hi blog, I started this week in Salford, teaching and helping Philip to make a Christmas Cake. it was fun,as was seeing more of Tim Munchin  We spent the following day in Manchester as tourists and we all enjoyed it. I was feeling very proud that for the first time since dad died, Sandra Jackie and I were together for a few days and there were no tears! just a wonderful few days being together as happy sisters ,having fun! Then we went to Fact for MMCC to see  Beasts of the Southern Wild. Which I loved, BUT there is a scene in that movie when a little girl is saying goodbye to her dying father. On its own it was very moving, but for me it took me back to the last night I spent with my dad in hospital, and we were crying for the same reason. That was the night of my 63rd birthday. I felt quite sad and ill, actually, for a few days after, intense feeling cause me to shut down my digestive systems.  I have found since dad died that I have felt a bit disillusioned ab...

 Andrew's 40th birthday rug!

Hi pa, Sandra and Jackie, just left, missing them ,but have to say we had a wonderful time together. I took them to the five trees , we all said hello to you ,and they took some pictures of us all there at your tree. We enjoyed being tourists in Liverpool and we went to the Phil pub and chatted about you and how much you loved that pub. Cousin Hugh send me a DVD of some family film Uncle Hugh took when he came home from OZ most of it is the holiday you all took in the camper van! it was great to see us all in the Chekhov room in Seven Sisters Hope Street. We saw Grannie and grand-da too.It was very emotional to see you all again. Hugh or was it uncle Hugh, put really good music over the film and that made it emotional too. We went to the hospital with John yesterday, that was hard ,going to the Linda McCartney wing and waiting for ages to see the doctor, who was really nice, but it is still hard . Talking about all the things that are going on with John. He looks and fee...

Hi blog, pleased to say I got through yesterday dad's 1st anniversary. The five of us were in touch and we all feel the same; can't believe that a year has gone past, and we all miss ma and pa and visiting Kintillo so much. Gary invited the family over last night, well, Wendy did. t was so good that they we all together, and they gained comfort from each other. Sandra was very sad and upset as I was , Jackie was struggling but was withdrawn. Gary and Matthew were in touch and said how they felt. I was glad to hear from everyone . I had a tough day ,totally forgot Jane and Becky the cleaners were coming, they nearly gave me a heart attack. I hardly slept the night before so was having a dressing gown morning. I was glad they came , i did cry over them and they gave me a hug, I got dressed and went for a walk to the five trees. hugged dad's tree and had a chat with him. It was a lovely morning and I felt better, came back in time to get ready for work before client...

John is away in London/Stockholm this week. I have been so looking forward to time alone in the house,in my life, time to have some unstructured days, eating what and when I like. Seeing friends watching favourite movies, Helen time. I guess. I have been very productive in the house, sorted the bedroom as best I can without more new furniture, which I can't face getting just yet! Michelle's man with a van came and took away my old duvets , quilts,sheets, clothes , and the old unit from the hall. I have donated our dresser from the bedroom to the hall and it look so much nicer. I have done some banking things too. AND I am so close to finishing Andrew/s rug.Promised John I would have it done by the time he gets home. I had tea with Beth and she has given me a book about Blessingsways. I am organising hers.I know them as baby showers ,this is a bit similar but with a focus on the Mother. All new to me but very happy to be asked, especially as I do not have a daughter to...