A Continuation of Reflections

Darling John I have been steeped in memories of you today , remember  the day before we got married, all the preparation , fun, buying a cake,  little silver horseshoes, roses.  Joe and Vera helping in the house. making the house festive. Feeling happy with the black dress I bought and all the accessories, AND hiring the gorgeous black velvet cape from the vintage shop ! Mary and Paul coming and organising take away food from the everyman....drinking wine, feeling blissfully happy. ......."we had it good there for a while"  I love you I miss you my darling John .TT XX

Hello darling, thinking of you today sending love out into the universe and hope it finds you. We are into October, I got through September and our birthdays and I was ok a little sad as I always will be at your absence ,but i had a wonderful birthday, lots of loving messages from around the world from our children and good friends,; best of all I went with Andrew and Lucy to hear Ode to Joy at the Philharmonic, it was very special, being with A&L ,remembering out time there many years ago, and thinking of how often we listened to this over the years,how we loved it and always shed a tear,at the miuic and the idea of joy to and in the world, perhaps that is why we were sentimental at christmas, the music gives up hope in the turbulent world.As someone once said, "it is not the despair, I can cope with despair it is the hope that I can't cope with" I saw my counsellor for the last time in September, I will miss her gentle presence, but I no longer need her, and t...