Part 4 John's 80th.
Been very busy with work this week.It has been good to have a focus. The weather has been just beautiful and John and I have been out in the park having toasties and we went to see The Help at Fact. I loved it ,especially as it was the last book dad suggested I read. I am using morning pages to write to dad when I feel I want to tell him something.I can't stop telling him about my life and what the family are all up to so suddenly.It will take time. I spoke to a woman who's father died years ago and she said she still has conversations whith him. I am glad ,it is not madness it is a way of comforting yourself.All kinds of things take me to my sense of loss:music ,even music that is not connected to dad in any way,nature,a passing converstaion,almost anything is dangerous,can start me off. Other days I am going around feeling in charge in control on top of this.I feel for Sandra and Matthew they have all the legal stuff to do. Dad's roof has a tiny leak and a roofer has to b...