A Continuation of Reflections

Hello darling I am leaving Liverpool tomorrow for a few days in Balloch , Sandra and Harry have moved there.I am looking forward to seeing their new place. We fly to Dubai on Thursday night and will arrive there with Jackie on Friday morning. I feel very tired.. been a long few week with lots happening , your ashes being scattered was huge for me and left me feeling quite down...I have run two successful workshops which were really successful and  took it out of me too. I have a new table and chairs, have had the fire place removed, a new white desk,and a new sofa .which is a beautiful raspberry colour very rich looking,I got some berry coloured lights to compliment it. I wonder what you would make of the place John..I think you would approve, we hardly ever had anything new, I feel the need to have some bright colours and new things.I know you prefer old things...maybe I need a wee change ....does not mean I did not enjoy living with the things that you loved too. Joh...

Darling John I miss you.....love Helen TT xx

Darling John how I miss you. We had a beautiful day on Saturday our 28th wedding anniversary and the day we scattered your ashes in Sefton Park. I wakened early and just cried and cried, last year at this time you were with us..in Marie Curie , you rang me very early that morning to wish me a happy anniversary,,,you were amazing to remember that.. We always reminisced about our wonderful wedding day and this year those of us left reminisced once more. I decorated the house with our familiar Halloween decorations, I bought beautiful flowers which you would have done in the past....I had candles and incense burning for you my dear love. It was a beautiful autumn day sunshine and colour. The family gathered here and close friends, Andrew ,Lucy, Penny, Johnny ,Patsy ,Kev and Liz and me. We listened to your writings, Andrew read what you wrote about  what you wished for your ashes in Liverpool, he did well, he felt a bit anxious as he did the day of your funeral, but he ...