This week has been very hard emotionally and physically- my arms continue to feel very sore , I have had chiropractic treatment and three out of six massages- and I know I am progressing slowly. I feel frustrated because I can't do all the things I want to to-especially in the garden, moving pots re potting plants. I have to change John's bed more often and on a bad day that is sore on my arms.Lots of things are difficult, John has not been great, he has more pain, and the new medication while helpful, makes him so tired, and I am not sure the treatment for the side effects of the medication is helping just yet. I feel quite down about it all- I don't know if this is the beginning of the end, it might be.This last two years has taken it's toll on me. I can see it in my face sometimes. I am fighting tears a lot when I look at John dosing in bed, or fast asleep. He looks so pale sometimes and I catch glimpses of what he looked like when he was in hospital. I am h...